I’m 23 years old, and I’m very much in need of help. I’ve been dealing with endometriosis, but I didn’t know what it was until I diagnosed after a laparoscopy last April. I also have aspergers syndome, so this entire experience has left me very near wanting to kill myself in pain and frustration.
For the past two years, I had been dealing with debilitating rectal pain during my periods. It it absolutely earth-shattering. I cannot sit, move, walk, or even go to the bathroom without screaming in pain. My flow was so heavy that I had to wear adult diapers just to catch the flow, and I missed so much work and school. My last gyn put me on birth control, and that lightened my flow and the pain wasn’t as bad, but it was still there and extremely uncomfortable. I cried myself to sleep at night because of the pain. A colonoscopy in Oct 2010 ruled out anything wrong with my colon or intestines, and I’ve had five or six in-office rectal exams with that same colorectal surgeon. My last OBGYN gave me two laparoscopies, one in Feb 2010 and another in Jan 2011. Both times he said he didn’t find anything wrong, even though obviously there was something wrong. Then in February 2011, the pain started occuring even when I wasn’t on my period. I told my doctor, and finally in March he refused to see me again and told me to find another doctor because he didn’t know what was wrong with me. Safe to say I was in tears and depressed for a very long time.
I went to see a new OBGYN in April 2011. He is a very young doctor, graduated in 2006, and I like him a lot. The attention and understanding he gives me is like day compared to the night of my last doctor. He did a pelvic exam and a pap smear, and I was leaping off the table in pain, trying to keep from screaming, but it didn’t really work. He could tell I was in excrutiating pain. He put me on the Depo shot to stop my periods, and I’ve been spotting ever since. I’m due for my second injection this month (June 2011). We decided to do another laparoscopy (April 2011), because my last doctor never sent over my other medical records for him to see. After I woke up, he told me that I had stage 2 endo with the majority of it on my colon. I was shocked, because twice my last doctor had checked for just that condition, and hadn’t found anything. This was just mere months before this last procedure. I felt absolutely cheated and dumbfounded. The new doc burned off everything that he could see, and said that should take care of my pain, and that after the Depo started kicking in, I should start to feel better.
It has been a month since my procedure, and I am still in pain. It’s worse during my period, obviously, but every minute of every single day, I have trouble sitting, walking, or doing any kind of physical activity. There is pain and pressurein my rectum all the time. If I have any kind of hard stool coming out, or if I haven’t had a bowel movement yet that day, it’s extremely irritating and uncomfortale. It hurts to have a bowel movement at all. It feels like my anal muscles are constantly straining to do their duty. I’m trying to become sexually active, and every time my boyfriend tries to penetrate, I feel like something is being pushed out of my rectum, like I need to have a bowel movement, and it hurts like h***. I can hardly have a bowel movement by myself, I always have to use laxatives or something to soften it up, but the frequent soft stools are making my hemorrhoids flare up again, and that causes even more pain.
The majority of the endo was on my rectum, or at least that was where most of the scare tissue was. Why am I still in this much pain a month after my procedure? The pain never went away at all. He told me it was just that I was hurting because of having the endo removed, but certainly it shouldn’t take this long to heal? And it’s the exact same pain, only now I’m having trouble going to the bathroom by myself. I use laxatives and suppositories to help me have a bowel movement, but I can hardly stick one in my rectum because I feel so swollen inside there. I want to have a hysterectomy, at least have my uterus removed, but my doctor doesn’t want to do that. I am very young, but I do not want children. I have aspergers, a mental disorder, and a very bad history of breast cancer and heart disease in my family, so in my opinion, it would be irresponsible of me to have children in the first place. My doctor knows this, but he is still hesitant. He wants me to see a pain specialist, but I’m sick of covering up the pain. I want to know how to fix it as much as I can! I don’t expect a cure, but certainly there is something else going on that’s still causing me these problems!
I’m sorry if this was TMI. I’ve just been down this road so many times and reiterated this story to so many people that I’m at my wit’s end. I just want to have some som

